I was speaking to a friend in Gaza and he told me that his little cousin is writing her name all over her body with her markers, just in case she gets blown up and no one can identify her. She is 11 years old. 11. The psychological pain and trauma the Palestinian children go through is absolutely repulsive.
Wa alaykum salaam
Of course you’re worthy of being loved, just as any person does. Look at the story of Julaybib (radiAllahu anh) a man who was considered by the people as ugly, repulsive, a man of no known lineage or honour who lived as a hermit and the Prophet ﷺ saw to it that even he had a partner. It doesn’t matter what your deficiencies are, finding somebody out there for you is possible as long as you try. The Prophet ﷺ speaking about marrying the fertile women is something that is recommended (mustahab) and not a must, it’s not sinful for a man to marry an infertile woman. Also the mention of marrying a fertile woman was more the encouragement to marry young since youth was probably the only way of determining fertility.
It’s up to you whether you want to mention to potential spouses that you are infertile but I recommend you be absolutely open about it, it’s nothing to be ashamed of because it’s completely out of your control. Being open and honest from the start will give you a better relationship than to mention it after marriage which could cause issues, you’d rather not have to go through that later. Believe me when I tell you that there are men out there who don’t mind marrying somebody who can’t have children, perhaps you’ll find a man who is in a similar situation to yourself so don’t give up hope, you have a shot at love just as much as the next person. Some people have children and others don’t just like in life you get something that somebody else doesn’t and vice versa, it doesn’t make you any less of a person and perhaps Allah wishes for you to be more like our mother A’isha (radiAllahu anha) rather than our mother Khadija (radiAllahu anha).